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I Get Nervous

I confessed some of my wrong doings to Mr. Wonderful. What I thought would cause a HUGE rift in our relationship has brought us even closer together.  Naturally he was angry. I was talking dirty to a friend of his. Never a smart move. But when that friend asked if we could progress to actually cheating on our significant others, I backed down. The realization of potentially hurting Mr. Wonderful kicked in quickly. I’m working on whatever is driving my compulsion. Bottom line, I need to change before I go too far.  Or farther I should say, I HAVE already gone too far.

So Mr. W and I are back on track. We had a long in depth talk. He said he doesn’t deserve to be treated like this. But he loves me, and he’s willing to put up with it this once because he loves me. If it happens again, he’ll leave me. Kind of like everybody gets one. So don’t fuck up like that again. Thank GOD for make up sex.

Today is the next big hurdle in our relationship. I am going in a few short hours to meet his mother and step father for dinner. I am very nervous. Especially after acting like a no good ho this past week.  But I am going to pretty up, where nice pants and a nice top, smile, be courteous and hope for the best. I love Mr. Wonderful. While he insists he does not care what his family thinks, I do.

Mr. Wonderful has only brought one other girl home to meet his mother. That was his ex wife. His ex wife who still talks to his mother on a regular basis and has a very close relationship with her. Partially because of the kids, and partially because they get along so well.

Did I mention that I’m incredibly nervous? We’ll see what happens!

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